strips

fall, swing and slip from the sky

pink, lavender, yellows

periwinkles and light blues

pain rips through my vagina

fathers fall and i cannot lose you father

i crumble into a beautiful woman

struck

struck

beaten with bats and ripped through with glass

the fight is futile

i have lost

my youth and my will

suffering is a word with no meaning

useless and senseless

i watch my father drown in fear

i watch  the futility of my love

and all the deep breathing cannot destroy the god-damn glass that tears me to shreds

that falls from the sky

and mean nothing to me anymore

i have had too much taken away from me

that nothing adds up to anything

anymore